Monday, June 17, 2019

In The Middle

"I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living."
Psalm 27:13

Hello, friends!
I can't believe it has been nearly two full months since I posted anything here.  SO much has happened and is happening in our lives, I truly have not had the energy to sit down and write a post.  I am exhausted and beyond overwhelmed, to say the very least.

If you have lived very long at all, you have more than likely reached the accurate conclusion that life is far from an easy journey.  You have probably learned that if life is going perfectly smooth and you are trial-free, that sort of utopia is short-lived, and you can know with certainty that some sort of trial is on the horizon, and it is just a matter of time before it has descended full-force.  We live in a fallen, very broken world, where smooth sailing doesn't last long.  

Jesus always spoke truth.  Jesus IS the truth, and  He said, "These things I have spoken unto you, that in Me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world."  John 16:33

King David went through many hard things, and I believe it was during those times of deep depression, anguish of spirit, and being chased by his enemies that he wrote the comforting words we now call the book of Psalms.  In Isaiah 30:6, we read, "And David was greatly distressed; for the people spake of stoning him, because the soul of all the people was grieved, every man for his sons and for his daughters: but David encouraged himself in the LORD his God."  As we walk this Christian journey there will be times when we feel no hope and it feels like God has forsaken us.  In those places, we have two choices—we can throw in the towel and give up hope, or we can do as David did and encourage ourselves in the Lord.  Sometimes there is no one around who will encourage us, and the enemy of our souls will come in like a flood and overwhelm our souls.  If we find no external source of encouragement, we must encourage ourselves.  Thank God, we have the Psalms and all of the rest of God's Word to turn to and find that desperately needed encouragement.

As I've worked through the writing of this post, I have shared songs and Scriptures God is using to encourage us, and I hope they will be a blessing and comfort to you, too.

I have often said there is a beginning and an end to every trial.  There's the beginning —this moment of shock and bewildered surprise when a trial is first announced and introduced to our lives.  A time of being caught off guard by being flung into unfamiliar and unpleasant circumstances.  This is where the bad news descends and the nightmare begins. Then there is the end—that moment it occurs to you that the storm has passed, you have lived through it, and you are now on the other side.  Those two points of reference are easy to pick out and identify.  

But, what about the middle?

"Although the fig tree shall not blossom, neither shall fruit be in the vines; the labor of the olive shall fail, and the fields shall yield no meat; the flock shall be cut off from the fold, and there shall be no herd in the stalls:  Yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will joy in the God of my salvation.  The LORD God is my strength, and He will make my feet like hinds' feet, and He will make me to walk upon mine high places."
Habakkuk 3:17-19

The middle of a trial is a tricky thing because you never know just how long "the middle" will last.  If you had a beginning and an ending date for your trials, at least you would know how long you were going to be in that awkward place called the middle.  But, God doesn't give us an end date for our trials, nor does He always tells us what the outcome will be.  In these places, the only thing we can do is trust.
When we don't understand His logic, it is then that we must trust His wisdom.  

The trials that my family and I are walking through are fiery.  It feels like the furnace has been heated "seven times hotter," (Daniel 3:19) and I have often felt that my strength, and my nerves for that matter, were going to completely buckle and fail.  I have often commented to my husband and son that if we were going through just ONE of these things at a time, it would be completely overwhelming, but to go through ALL of them at once is nearly more than I can bear.  I cry out to God from the depths of my soul to help us.  I plead with Him to speak to me.  There are times He draws very near, and I can hear His still, small voice.  There are other moments when it seems the heavens are brass, and we are left to fight these battles alone.

In reality, I know that God is here.  He is with us.  He has not left us in this uncomfortable, desperate place.  One day, "the middle" will end, and we will see that we have walked through the fire and moved past it.  We will emerge without the smell of smoke upon us, and we will be able to look back over this valley from the Shepherd's point of view.

"Behold, I go forward, but He is not there; and backward, but I cannot perceive Him:  on the left hand, where He doth work, but I cannot behold Him: He hideth Himself on the right hand, that I cannot see Him:  but He knoweth the way that I take: when He hath tried me, I shall come forth as gold."
Job 23:8-10

As we walk through the fire, the dear Lord often reminds me that this is all a part of our story, and it needs to be added to the book that I thought I had finished writing.  (I even wrote a blog post with a caption that read, The Book is Finished!)  Ha!  God has a way of putting us in our place and proving us wrong, doesn't He?  As He continues to lead us through such uncharted territory, I am beginning to see the reasons for His delay in the publishing of the book.  How can I finish writing it, when He hasn't finished writing it through the circumstances of our lives?  He isn't finished with it yet, and we are living out the chapters He will one day (Lord willing) lead me to add.  The book, "Biblical Minimalism" will be finished when God says it is finished.  

The other day as I shared with someone on the phone about some of the things we are walking through, it really hit a nerve when she replied, "What this story needs is a happy ending."
I say a hearty AMEN to that!  Here "in the middle," it's really hard to see that there will be a happy ending to that book.  But, I keep reminding myself that just because God hasn't does not mean He won't.  Just because we haven't seen it yet doesn't mean we never will.

Haven't Seen It Yet - Danny Gokey

"Return to your rest, O my soul, for the LORD has been good to you. For You have delivered my soul from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling. I will walk before the LORD in the land of the living.…"
Psalm 116:7-9

I don't know what you may be going through, but one thing I do know is that every, single person who will ever read this post is or will be going through something.  None of us escape the human condition, and as Christian fellow-travelers, we each have our own appointed trials.  "That no man should be moved by these afflictions: for yourselves know that we are appointed thereunto."  I Thessalonians 3:3

Everybody's Going Through Something - Karen Peck & New River

"We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed."
2 Corinthians 4:8-9

One of the oldest deceptions in satan's playbook is to convince God's children into believing that life would be easier if they would turn their backs on Him.  What a pack of lies!  What he does not tell us is the fact that life will go on, whether we choose to continue to follow Jesus or not, and life is chock full of trouble.  "Man that is born of a woman is of few days, and full of trouble." Job 14:1
That is just the plain facts.  So, to think it would be easier to shut God out of our lives and try to live independently from His lordship and somehow struggle through it all alone is the height of absurdity.
Jesus Christ is our only hope, and pressing in to the comfort of His Spirit is the solace we all need to survive the tribulations of this life.

All My Hope is in Jesus - Crowder

"The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD: and he delighteth in his way.  Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down: for the LORD upholdeth him with his hand."
Psalm 37:23-24

As we walk through such dark places, God is continually reminding me of some universal truths.  I hope they will help you in your own unique battles.

1.  No one can pick up my shield of faith but me.  I have to push through the fear, doubt, and unbelief to take it in my hands, go to war, and FIGHT satan.  It only works and quenches his fiery darts if I am holding it in my hand and using it.
"Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked."  Ephesians 6:16

2.  The words that come out of my mouth are a matter of life and death.
"Death and life are in the power of the tongue."  Proverbs 18:21
A word, once it has left my lips, will not return void.  Whatever I speak becomes my reality.
Speaking doom and gloom becomes breeding grounds for satan's lies to become what I believe.  Speaking God's Word out loud activates Its power.  "even God, who quickeneth the dead, and calleth those things which be not as though they were."  Romans 4:17

Speak Life - Toby Mac

"I shall not die, but live, and declare the works of the LORD."
Psalm 118:17

3.  The battle is the LORD's.  This is not my battle to win.  It is His.  When I try to take it on in my own strength, I will fail.  It is WAY too much for me.  I can't handle this.  It is only through His strength, empowerment, and Spirit's infilling that I will ever be able to face the giants in front of me.  Herein lies my confidence.  I fight under HIS battle flag.  I am HIS soldier.  My enemies cower when they see Who I am fighting for.  "They will surrender their stronghold because of fear; their officers will be afraid of the LORD's battle flag." This is what the LORD says--the one whose fire is in Zion, whose firepot is in Jerusalem." Isaiah 31:19 (NET Bible)

Confidence - Sanctus Real

"Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest."
Joshua 1:9

4.  I am weak powerless, but He is strong.  "And He said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for My strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."  2 Corinthians 12:9  When I am at my weakest point, when my faith is GONE, when I am down for the count, HIS strength is just getting started in me.  Because of Him, I can rise up one more time and fight another day.

"Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of His might."
Ephesians 6:10

5.  No matter where I am in my battle—whether it be the beginning, the middle, or near the end—He is always there.  He will never leave.  He is walking through the fire with me.  "He answered and said, Lo, I see four men loose, walking in the midst of the fire, and they have no hurt; and the form of the fourth is like the Son of God."  Daniel 3:25  

God help us all to lean heavily upon Him and His strength in these trying times.
May we ever be strong and keep the faith!

"Lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world."  Matthew 28:20


  1. Thank you for your beautiful writing :) I pray the Lord will give you strength as you go through these trials. We're just getting a new bathroom installed and I thought that was stressful, but what your going through puts my little load in perspective. It's funny isn't it but when life is a calm water, I too know from experience to enjoy and appreciate that moment, as so often something challenging is just around the corner. Your beautiful post is a true resource that one could turn too time and time again to listen to the worship music, read the scriptures and leave comforted and strengthened. Thank you for sharing your struggle and more importantly what is giving you strength. ~ Blessings - Linda.

    1. Thank you ever so much, Linda. Remodeling surely can be so very stressful and really tries the patience! Your kind words were such a blessing to me and truly touched my heart. Thank you so much for your sweet visit!

  2. Dearest Cheryl, so good to see you post lady and please know that I will be praying for you and your family. A former Pastor said one that we have just came through a fire, in the midst of one or there is one right around the corner. So very true. Each week there is a new scripture sitting at my computer that every time I see it I read it and think about it. Today to start out my week my scripture is "Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. Eph. 6:10. Wanted to share it with you today. Praying for the strength that ONLY can come through Him. Hugs and blessings, Cindy

    1. Thank you, sweet Cindy! Your pastor sounds like a very wise man. I LOVE the verse you shared. It is only through HIS might that we can be strong and face such adversity and trials. You are so right. I so appreciate your kind words of encouragement. They truly blessed me, my friend.

  3. Oh, Cheryl, my heart aches for you and yours as you go through this time of trial, but you have exactly the right attitude, placing all your trust and faith in the Lord who goes with you. We know, because Jesus said, there will be troubles in this world, but we know, too, that He has overcome the world, and we are His own. Praying for you!

    1. Thank you, dear Martha! Yes, praise His name, because He overcame, we can, too! Your prayers are such a gift to me, and I appreciate you from the bottom of my heart.

  4. Good Morning Cheryl. You KNOW I have been in prayer for you, Kevin and Zach for what seems like a long time now. I will continue to lift you up before the throne room of our Heavenly Father.
    That you are able to write such a beautiful post and share this music with us all shows just what a heart for others that your have. Even in your battles, you are sharing and uplifting others. I am blessed to know you. I also know that God is right there with you, walking through the fire.
    Much love and Blessings,

    1. Dear Betsy! YES, I think often of how you are praying for us, and it just comforts me more than I can put into words. Yes, it has surely been a LONG trial, and I am beyond weary and longing for the Lord to come on the scene and move these mountains. Your dear, kind words meant so much to me, and your continued prayers are a God-sent gift to our lives. Sending much love, gratitude, and many blessings back to you, faithful friend.

  5. You speak the truth. Cheryl, and we all go through something at sometime in our lives. The middle, as you say, can drag on and on, but yes, Our Lord is always with us. I have to pray, “Jesus, you take over” so many times. Please know that you and your family are prayed for. May God bless and guide you through these times.

    1. Yes, dear Lord, please take over. I have been telling the Lord that I MUST surrender it all to Him, because it is truly more than I can bear or carry anymore. You are such a dear blessing to me, and your prayers are appreciated more than I can even say. I am praying for you, too, dear friend. God bless you!

  6. "If you had a beginning and an ending date for your trials, at least you would know how long you were going to be in that awkward place called the middle. But, God doesn't give us an end date for our trials, nor does He always tells us what the outcome will be. In these places, the only thing we can do is trust." Truth! And sometimes we think we're at the end, Cheryl, and then "bam!", we find that the trial is not yet over. Oh, that can be so confusing! It looks as though God has brought a resolution and we give Him glory and even testify to His provision and then the deal falls through and we're left to wonder what God is doing and how did we get it wrong. It is then, as you wrote, that we must trust. Reading your post, the words of Trust His Heart by Babbie Mason come to mind:
    All things work for our good
    Though sometimes we don't see
    How they could
    Struggles that break our hearts in two
    Sometimes blind us to the truth

    Our Father knows what's best for us
    His ways are not our own
    So when your pathway grows dim
    And you just don't see Him,
    Remember you're never alone

    God is too wise to be mistaken
    God is too good to be unkind
    So when you don't understand
    When don't see His plan
    When you can't trace His hand
    Trust His Heart
    Trust His Heart

    He sees the master plan
    And he holds our future in His hand,
    So don't live as those who have no hope,
    All our hope is found in Him
    We see the present clearly
    But He sees the first and the last
    And like a tapestry He's weaving you and me,
    To someday be just like Him

    God is too wise to be mistaken
    God is too good to be unkind
    So when you don't understand
    When don't see His plan
    When you can't trace His hand
    Trust His Heart
    Trust His Heart

    Jesus is alive and well and living in each of us who have received Him. We are never alone because He resides in our heart and His power sustains us. I mentioned to my pastor recently in a counseling session that there have been times when in prayer I have felt that my prayers weren't getting past the ceiling. He smiled and said, "Nancy, don't you see that God isn't up there somewhere? He lives inside you. (Pastor patted his heart) He's right here." Of course I know this intellectually, but somehow when Pastor said it that day it was profound to me and it transformed my thinking. It's such a mystery, but it's real and it's dynamic. And when we grasp that truth we find new strength and our confidence is fully in Him because this life we're living is HIS LIFE. He's living His life through us. Think of it, my friend! It's so exciting! Sorry to go on and on here, I just had to encourage you with what God has shown me recently. Hugs, Nancy

    1. Dear, sweet friend! Your precious comment brought me to tears! Oh, the words to that song, too! And, I LOVE what your pastor told you. How very, very true! It reminded me of another hymn that says, "No more I think of God afar, but see Thee, Lord, within, Oh, shine in me Thou morning star, and keep Thy temple clean. Oh, Glory to Jesus, So sweet in me, My body Thy temple shall forever be." I don't think I will ever be able to fully grasp or comprehend that Jesus actually lives IN me. What a blessed thought! Thank you so much for sending me those lyrics and sharing your heart and such dear encouragement with me. Sending many hugs and much love back to you. I know you surely understand hard trials, my friend.

  7. Dear Cheryl, as I sat reading your post, my heart ached for you. I don’t know your trials and circumstances, but God does. I will lift you and your sweet family up to our Father who holds you. May you feel His peace and comfort sweet friend. I was so glad to see a post from you❤️

    1. Oh, thank you, sweet friend! Yes, our dear Lord knows and sees all of our troubles, and I keep reminding myself that HE is the One in control. I am ever grateful to you for your support and encouragement and prayers. You are such a blessing to me!

  8. Wow my sister, you poured your heart out in this post. What ever you are going through it is pulling toward the Lord and not away. I am convinced it those deep trials that grow us into His image, we entered into His suffering and it makes us long for heaven. The world wants heaven here on earth but we Christians have been given the mandate to show them a little heaven in us, called the Comforter. I am sure those who know what is going on are seeing a super natural work in your life as you pour your heart out. I know many of us will be praying strength and wisdom for this latest. thank you for being so open and vulnerable

    1. OH, sweet Betty, you are so right, it truly is pulling us toward the Lord. We must just press in closer to Him when things are so dark. He is our only light and hope. I can only trust that the ones who do know are seeing that supernatural work that God is doing. It is hard for me to see it, but I know you are right and thank you so much for reminding me that these fiery trials are not without purpose. I am so grateful for you and your encouragement and prayers and support. Your kind words meant to so much!

  9. Hi Dear sis, sorry lost first comment, truly iPads are great when work but safari simply useless on embedded comment boxes which you have they’re very unstable.
    Most blogs have as default which means I’m in Firefox. Won’t write all am not well had lower molar tooth today.
    Praying for you.. one thing dear sis, having started the trial and past day one or week one etc you’ve the worst past and light joy and YESS!!! happy ending are to come.
    Happy ending may not be till heaven. I think that for me. I do have some happy times now but mostly it’s a real deep struggle and just how much only the Lord knows,
    I’m not even thinking of that as find it’s best not to do so, or one becomes overwhelmed by it.
    God has the big picture in view!
    He sees what we cannot. It is of his MERCIES that we are NOT consumed! Praise His glorious name.
    How I love Him.
    Prayer hugs dear sis. Pray for you all each day.
    Thanks for sharing, Shaz in Oz.xx

    {Wonderful Words of Life - Shaz in Oz}
    {Calligraphy Cards - Shaz in Oz}

    1. So sorry to hear you have had dental work and hope you feel much better soon, dear sis! I love the verse you quoted that it is of His mercies we are not consumed. That was a verse my dear Mom quoted often, and it is so true and proven out during daily life. Thank you so much for your prayers for us. It touched me to know you are praying for us every day, and I am praying for you, too, and hope you feel better. Many blessings and much love to you!

  10. May God strengthen you with His power and His might as you press on through "the middle," sister.

    I wanted to share a poem from Annie Johnson Flint with you because God has used her poems so often to comfort me, and this one just "happened" to be open in my browser and I "happened" to click on that tab (so having 90 tabs open sometimes has value after all :-) ).

    In Time of Need

    Not by my need alone I ask this token
    That Thou, O Lord, dost hear and heed my cry;
    But by Thy promise that cannot be broken,
    That all my need in Christ Thou wilt supply;
    Not by my love for Thee, so oft disproved,
    Not by my gifts to Thee, so poor and small,
    But by Thy love that gave Thy best-beloved,
    And with that one great Gift included all.

    Not by my faith I plead, for that can falter,
    Aye, and has faltered in the days gone by;
    But by Thy faithfulness that cannot alter,
    And by Thine ordered covenants on high,
    Set safe and sure above Time's brief duration,
    Beyond all change, eternally the same;
    By these I dare my fervent supplication,
    By Thy great mercies and Thy holy name.

    Annie Johnson Flint

    Philippians 4:19 But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

    1. This is just so beautiful, Mary. Thank you SO much for sharing it. I have gone back and re-read it and found such comfort in it. I know God led you to send it right when you did, and it was all by His design you found it right then. It is amazing how He works and how He uses us to bless and encourage our brothers and sisters in Christ. You are such a blessing and encouragement to me, dear sister. God bless you abundantly!

  11. Cheryl, hi. I'm sorry you're finding yourself in the midst of the fire. Having been there, done that, I appreciate this post.

    I pray that the writing of it and the conversation that's followed will be used by God to give you great encouragement. He is able.

    1. It surely has brought great encouragement, and I so appreciated your sweet comment, Linda. Yes, praise the Lord, He is able! He told me in prayer the other day that we were nearing the end of this season of fiery trials. I know there will be more, but oh, praise the Lord, for the hope of reprieve! Weeping endures for the night, but joy comes in the morning. I cling to those promises. Trusting the Lord to see you through any hard places you are facing, also, sweet sister. So thankful for you!

  12. Hello Dear Sister and Friend,Oh how happy I was to see your post again but my heart dropped to know you are in the middle of a hard battle..And it also sounds like you are at a stand still just waiting on God..Know He is ALWAYS on time even if He is 4 days late.The end results are always VICTORY!! I know I will be waiting for the results when the Victory cry I hear..I know in the middle the end seems so far away..But the light is still at the end of the tunnel..I had such a heavy burden to pray for you all for some time as I wrote I felt something was wrong..I am in contact with a huge Prayer Chain here with over 2000 people involved..So you and your family are going to the Prayer Chain soon.My computer has been down so that's why I am late getting to you..You know in those hardest battles is when we can shine the brightest..You know I was told in a dream once that the darker the road the brighter the lines show up to keep us on the right side.These times are not wasted but God is making God gold out of you all.I am sorry for the heartache and pain that has been yours for sometime..But as we know Job came forth better in the end than the beginning..WOW God really trust you all to allow the pressure to be long and hard He knows you will stand the test..However I also know that in these middle times we sometime NEED some hand holder upers to win the fight as same as Moses..God help us to be at the front lines to help others fight on..God gave Me a song recently and I would like to share a few words from it with you..Do You Feel All Alone In The Middle Of Your Storms...And You Have No One To Really Care...Well HERE COMES YOUR LORD...PUTS HIS HAND IN YOURS...Saying Child I will Care For YOU..And know when your strength is gone and you feel Lord I can not go on..It is then Dear Cheryl HE will reach out and carry you..Just lean on them everlasting arms and rest and let Him fight for awhile for you..YOU need rest..All 3 of you know I care but Jesus cares the most so just take care and Again was great hearing something from you I was getting really worried about you all.May God give all of peace and comfort and a rest from the middle of the storm...All the songs were great And I really liked Every One Is Going Through Something..It is nice to remember that in the middle of the storms..We can look around and give a hand to someone else at times..Know love and prayers will be wrapped all around all 3 of you..Know I NEED your prayers also..Love Loads,Elaine

    1. Dear sister, you will never know how much your kind words of comfort and encouragement meant to me. Your words, "These times are not wasted but God is making gold out of you" are words of great edification to me right now. To be reminded that there IS a purpose for it all and that something GOOD will come of it was such an uplift to me. You are a precious sister and friend, and I want you to know that I am lifting you in prayer, also. I know your load is extremely heavy, and you face the enemy in a powerful way on a daily basis. Sometimes, it just all seems far too much, but we have the hope that one day we can look back from the Shepherd's point of view and make sense of it all. Sending much love back to you today, faithful friend!

  13. Oh sweet dear precious Cheryl! Your precious family are in my prayers daily! You are so right, being in the middle of the storm is probably the roughest place to be! I pray that in the middle of the storm though, that the Lord will send peace, quiet and rest, just like in the eye of a hurricane! He is able! Keep trusting, believing and continuing on... the victory will come soon and be worth it all! Wonderful songs that you have shared, such amazing encouraging and uplifting messages in each one. Continuing in prayer for you!!! Hugs and love!

    1. Dear, precious friend! Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your daily prayers for us. I loved your analogy about the middle of the storm finding peace as in the eye of a hurricane. We are seeing signs of that victory and believing God for the rest. You are such a blessing, encouragement, and Godsend to me, and I send much love and many hugs back to you today!

  14. Dear Cheryl, Thank you so much for sharing your heart in this very transparent and very encouraging post. You and your family have been on my heart and I lift you up often. Praying your ending comes sooner than later.

    My daughter and I were just talking this morning and being totally honest with each other that we are angry at God because as soon as one trial ends, the other one begins. My daughter very plainly stated, "Aren't I allowed to be happy?" And I have voiced that same thing to God. But we both realize that we can be joyful in the midst of trials. I mentioned how I was encouraged by a women's ministry post where the person stated that it is important to thank God even in the trials. I said to my daughter, to me practically that would be, "I thank you Lord for this trial, I am excited to see how you will work this out in and through me." I explained that I am not automatically assuming that the answer will be removal. (Because in my own history, I have health issues that will not be removed this side of Heaven.) But what I am knowing is that He will provide for me whether it be strength, joy, a means to manage, but He will provide just like He did the Israelites.

    I am back in the fiery furnace again myself. I have another health issue that has come up, and I just handed in my letter of resignation after seven years of working. I didn't want to leave, but my work environment has gotten very toxic and is very much affecting my health. Money is going to be very tight until I can find another job. But I am trusting the Lord to provide however He sees fit.

    Thinking of you and praying for you and your sweet family. Sending you much love,

    1. I am so grateful to you for your faithful prayers and friendship! I think of you so often, too, and I am praying for you and trusting God to send healing to you, dear friend! Oh, it hurt me to hear that you are having another health issue and had to quit your job! You and your daughter's conversation could have been one of ours in our family. It just seems sometimes that the night will never end, and oh, how we all long for reprieve! I surely understand what it means to be in a toxic situation, and even Jesus had to walk away from some who would never believe in Him and He told His disciples to shake off the dust of those who wouldn't receive them. Some situations are never going to change, no matter how we kill ourselves trying to make them change, and it is clearly NOT God's will that we remain in them. It is the enemy's work to steal, kill, and destroy, and if something is draining the very life out of us, God is surely telling us to step away from it, close the door, and move on. I truly believe you are going to feel so much better as you leave that chapter in your past and move forward, my friend. I am surely praying and trusting alongside you for God's sustaining grace and provision during this difficult time. I hope to email you soon. Sending much love to you and much gratitude for your prayers. SO thankful we have each other to pray and be there in these trying times!

    2. Oh sweet friend your words of encouragement regarding my resigning due to the toxic situation gave me so much more clarity and peace about my decision. I am sooo very grateful for your friendship and for how you edify me time and time again. I cherish you so much!

  15. Hugs to you dearie! I've been so out of touch. I've missed you. I've not read blogs much since I've moved. I've not written much since my husband has not yet been able to get my old computer to connect with the new internet. Soon I hope. I'm borrowing hubby's while he takes a well-deserved nap.

    Blessings from Harvest Lane Cottage,
    Laura Lane

    1. Hugs back to you, Laura! I hope your husband will be able to get your internet back up and running soon. I know how frustrating that can be to have to keep borrowing someone else's internet or computer. May the Lord work it all out for you. SO happy you are settled into your new, beautiful home and trusting God to send many more blessings your way!

  16. awesome article..
    thank for sharing :)

    1. Thank you! Thanks for reading and leaving kind words!

  17. Awe inspiring as always dear friend.