Saturday, March 30, 2019

A New Revelation of Jesus & My First Blog "Chat"

"There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love."  
I John 4:18  
(KJV)

I have been going through some hard places, and during the trials, I have felt completely God-forsaken.  I know, in reality, I am not and that will never be, but, oh, we can feel that way sometimes, can't we?  I have longed for an intense visit from Holy Spirit, and oh, praise His name, today He came to me with powerful anointing and such an overflow of blessing.  I do not know who was praying for me during the time from around 12:45 to 2:04 pm today, 3/30/2019, but if that was YOU, I say thank you from the depths of my heart!  Perhaps it was no person, in particular, but maybe it was because He just saw the deep agony and longing in my inmost soul—for HIM.  To fill me.  To take the fear away.  To renew a right spirit within me.  To renew my mind and set me free from the weight of heaviness and burdens I have been carrying.  He is REAL, my friends.  I know you know that.  I know each of you have enjoyed and basked in your own relationship with Him and you, too, have felt those times of refreshing spoken about in Acts 3:19.

In the book, "Biblical Minimalism," I talk about how in January of 2011, I developed a desire to KNOW Christ like never before.  I knew Him, but I wanted to know Him more.  I wanted to know Him better.  My desire was overwhelming.  It was my constant pursuit.  From that desire sprang much soul-searching, which in turn, brought about many life changes including a minimizing journey (you can read more about our journey by visiting our other blog, Biblical Minimalism), that has freed my little family and me of much bondage.  The process has been painful to the flesh on many occasions and levels, but oh, the spiritual freedom and transformation it has wrought!  I wouldn't change or redo a thing that God has brought us through these past years, and to God be ALL glory!


I am amazed at how my January 2011 desire continues to deepen and expand.  The more I come to know Jesus, the more about Him I want to know.  The more He reveals Himself to me, the more I long for deeper and wider revelation.  Today, was one of those times.  A precious visit.  He was here. Restoring, renewing, revealing the ugliness of my own nature.  Showing me truth I had been unable to see and unprepared to accept—until today.  He knows when we are truly honest and ready to receive what He so wants to tell us and reveal.

Sin is so ugly.  We cringe and draw back from light shining upon it.  But there comes a time we are so sick and ready to change that we open that closed door wide and unbridled, and we WANT the truth and we want to know Jesus more than we want to go on hiding.  Today, precious Holy Spirit shone the light on my sin of bowing and cowering to fear.  I was ashamed.  Mortified, as He didn't hold back, but told me the absolute sinfulness of my condition.  Why are we afraid of being exposed?  Why do we try to hide our sin in the corner, behind a locked door, thinking God does not see?  He sees through closed, locked doors as if they were not there.

I guess I never wanted to call my lifelong fear issue SIN.  Who wants to call it that?  It really doesn't matter what we call it or how we justify it, if we are bowing down to and serving FEAR, instead of believing and trusting God, we are sinning.  Revelation 21:7-8 proves my point and hit me like a ton of bricks today.  "He that overcometh shall inherit all things; and I will be his God, and he shall be My son.  But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death."

Fear, as an emotion, is a natural, helpful reaction and protection mechanism.  But, bowing down to and obeying the SPIRIT of fear is a whole other ballgame.  This is the "fearful" that is spoken about in Revelation 21.  God revealed so much to me today and in the days leading up to today.  My dear husband and son have been so patiently working with me, talking to me, listening to me pour out the inmost dregs of my soul, watching the torment I have been whipped by for so long, and they have prayed over and for me multiple times.  Today, I saw the answer to those prayers come down like a shower of blessing falling upon my soul enshrouded by a calming, overwhelming enveloping of Holy Spirit's presence in my private devotions.

Revelation 12;11 says, "And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony..."  I SO want to be an overcomer!  Though it was very uncomfortable for me to be so transparent and share my heart so intimately, I felt like God wanted me to voice my story audibly to you today, so you will find a link to my version of a podcast below.  Perhaps some of you can relate to my failures and struggles, and maybe you can find hope in knowing you are not alone.  This is my first attempt at posting a personal recording for the blog, so please excuse my lack of eloquence and the absence of bells and whistles.  Maybe if it happens again, I can figure out a way to make it a bit fancier and even add some of my original music!  😁

To listen, click HERE.

Thank you so much for taking the time to listen to and read what the Lord lays upon my heart.
May the Lord bless each one of you readers, in Jesus' name!

38 comments:

  1. I can so relate to this.
    God bless you, Cheryl.

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    1. Thank you so much, Sandi. God bless you, too.

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  2. Thank you for sharing about your story and the great mercy of our Savior.

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    1. Thank you for listening, Karen. God bless you!

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  3. Dear Cheryl, I am so very thankful that the Lord helped you to step out in faith and share your heart! I too watched my Mom live under a spirit of fear. But I ran the other way, and said I WILL NOT be like that--I will be strong! But of course that only led to self-sufficiency and shame on the other side. Oh, but God is so good to take us on the journey that He knows we need, in order to see His true heart for us! This stripping and purging isn't easy, tho, is it? I am so thankful we can pray for each other. What a gift on this pathway of following Him! Love and hugs to you, Sweet Sister!

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    1. Whew, it really is a step out in faith, isn't it? I loved what you share the other day with Anna, also. No, the stripping and purging is far from easy, but you are so right that we are so blessed to be here to pray for one another. Sending much love and many hugs back to you, dear friend!

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  4. Thank you for sharing this with us Cheryl. I read the post and listened to the podcast. You can hear the love you have for our Savior in your voice and your desire to please Him. I, too, struggle with fear. My family, even extended family, refers to me as “the worrier” that worries about everyone and everything. I know that fear is a liar and I need to overcome it. I am in awe of your description of Jesus talking with you. Such an amazing gift. I will be praying for a return to full health for you.
    Blessings my friend
    Betsy

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    1. I surely understand your struggles with worry, my friend. Dad used to call me "WW" for "Worry Wart!" I think when you care so deeply for those you love, that deep love is often accompanied with worry. We just want to fix things and want everyone to be okay, don't we? When all along, there is really hardly anything at all that is within our control. Thank you SO much for taking time to listen to my heart and for your dear, kind, encouraging words. Your prayers are so appreciated. I am praying for you, too, and sending many blessings your way.

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  5. Thank you dear lady for your transparency and for sharing the depths of your heart and soul with us. FEAR....can be brutally ugly. But isn't sin ugly? Hugs and blessings to you dear lady.
    Cindy

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    1. Yes, dear friend, all sin is so very ugly and so difficult to face, too. Who wants to see sin for what it really is? We think we are above it sometimes, when all along it lies beneath the surface eroding the joy from our lives. May the Lord bless you, Cindy. Many hugs and blessings back to you today!

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  6. Thank you sweet sister for sharing this with us! You and I sound like two peas in a pod. I'm ashamed to say that I too have battled worry and fear for way too long. Your recording today was a real blessing and encouragement to me. I will be praying for you as I know very well the battlefield you're fighting in. Also praying for your physical problems you're going through..

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    1. Aw, thank you so very much for your precious words of encouragement and for your understanding and most of all, your prayers, sweet friend. I am so grateful for you and your faithfulness to follow and be such a blessing to me so many times. May the Lord richly bless you in your place on this awful battlefield. It is so wonderful to be able to know that there are others who are in the fight with us, and we are not alone. Sending much loving reinforcement your way today!

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  7. Yes, Cheryl, the more we seek Jesus, the more we want to know Him; even when we can't "feel" His presence, we can trust that He's always there. Thank you for sharing your story with all of us.
    Blessings!

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    1. Thank you for reading, Martha. Many blessings to you, too!

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  8. Oh dear Cheryl... such a powerfully beautiful thing that the Lord has done in your life with this revelation, and through the spiritually healing touch of the Spirit! I'm SO very thankful to hear how the Lord came down and blessed your soul in such a mighty way! Oh there is nothing else like it in the world... to be washed, refreshed, restored, and renewed in Him as He reveals the hidden things in our hearts, and shows us the key to unlock the doors, and to be set free, as only HE can! It is a powerful and mighty thing to experience, and I am rejoicing with you! I listened to your message, and it is amazing how Kevin hit the nail on the head! My husband has done the same thing MANY times as well. It seems He gives them the insight that we need for our situations. And how wonderful that in your prayer time the Lord began to unlock some of the mysteries and sources of pain buried deep in your heart. He truly is the healer, not just of our bodies, but of our souls too! I will continue in prayer with you that the Lord continues to bless and pour out His mighty spirit in your life, and to bring relief from the heavy burden that fear brings to our lives! May the Lord continue to bless, encourage, and heal both your body, soul and spirit, in Jesus mighty name! Much love to you always!!!!

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    1. Oh, it surely is a wonderful thing when the Lord of glory comes down to spend some time with such a wretch as I! I am still rejoicing in that time of fellowship and many since then, too. It is a sweet life to walk daily with Jesus, even though the road is hard. His presence makes it all bearable, doesn't it? We are very blessed to have Godly men as husbands, my friend. Kevin has such a way of knowing exactly what to say, and it is always said in love and in a way that I can take it and receive it. Zach is following right in his Daddy's footsteps and speaks such wisdom into my life, too. I am eternally grateful for both of them and the way God uses them to hold up my arms in the battle. Much love to you today, too, dear Marilyn!

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  9. I soooo love when you are so honest and raw with your feelings, my friend. Oh my, I needed that just today, to read this. You are so powerful in not holding back. Thank you, thank you!!!

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    1. Oh, my, you will never know how much I appreciate you saying that. Whew, it is not an easy thing to be so honest and transparent, but if it takes that to comfort another, then I say amen to God using my blunders and many, many failures and shortcomings. I think you reach a point where it just isn't an easy thing to hold on to pride any longer, and it becomes more of a burden than to let it go and mind God, no matter how humiliating it is to the flesh. Wow, your words were SO meaningful to me, and I can't thank you enough for letting me know. Sending much love and gratitude your way, dear friend. Praying for you!

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  10. Cheryl...wow. Thank you for sharing.

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    1. Thank you for your visit and support, Chrissy. God bless you!

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  11. Dear Cheryl - how my heart is strengthened by your audio and the struggles that plague you. Rest assured you are not alone in your fears but I commend your efforts to overcome the issues that cause you fear. You are truly a blessing to Kevin and Zach , to all your family and friends and equally important to all your readers.

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    1. Thank you ever so much, sweet friend. I have been thinking of you and hoping all is well with you. Your words are such a dear blessing and encouragement! Sending love and blessings your way on this beautiful Lord's Day!

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  12. I'm so happy that The Spirit came to touch you in this season in such a timely manner.

    You're not alone of course. We all struggle with fear. Back when the recession hit I did my time in the valley. In that time I did enormous amounts of Bible studies using that key word "fear".

    What I come to find is that fear of anything more than the One who controls all things anyway is liken to idolatry.

    We're to fear or revere our Father first. It is respect to Him to acknowledge that He either causes or allows all things in life.

    To fear anything in this world that sits next to us in His hand seems a little silly, once we look at it from a wise perspective that only comes from Him anyways!!!

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    1. Wow, that is such a true point, Floyd. "Fear of anything more than the One who controls all things is liken to idolatry." Those are powerful words, and oh, so true. When you put it like that, it really hits home. Thank you for sharing what God has shown you and for being such a blessing to us all. Many blessings back to you today, brother!

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  13. Oh Cheryl,What a powerful blessings you have gave to many with your written and spoken words..You are far from being alone.I have lived with fear all my life.It is not an easy road to travel.I have alittle magnet on my refrigerator that says what time I am afraid I will trust in God..I read it many times a day..I have reasons to feel fear.You are blessed to have a Godly Husband and Son to walk with you in love to help hold you your hands in the fight..I had that with Mom and Dad but they are gone and it's a lonely road to walk trying to find my way..I had so much fear I was taken out of school most of a year..The Dr. told my Parents that I lived in the most fear of anyone they he had ever seen..You are a brave one to share all you have with the world to read and hear..I am sure this will bring forth good seed in people's life's..I need your prayers daily..Since I have developed PTSD since the wreck that took my Precious Mom it has made my fear much greater..So keep Me in your prayers I feel you would understand where many will never understand..You are a great blessing to many and I am sure your crown will have many stars in it..You are the best..I pray you will soon be well and your Husband and Son be richly blessed also..Love Loads,Elaine

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    1. Thank you for your kind words! I am beyond grateful to God for allowing me to walk through life with such a precious, dear husband and son. I could never thank God enough for them. I really don't feel brave, my friend. Every, single step on this blog is a mixture of faith and fear, and so many times lately, I have wondered about whether to continue. I am so sorry to hear of your intense battles with fear. It truly IS a spirit, and it can completely wreck and ruin a life. I know you miss your dear parents so terribly. I understand PTSD, as my husband, son, and I all three suffer from it. It is a very real and hard giant to battle, and we must always make sure we put on the armor of God daily. I DO understand, and I am praying for you and trusting you will have grace for every day and be able to press on in spite of all you are dealing with, past and present. Sending much love to you on this beautiful Lord's Day!

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  14. May peace, comfort, and joy be with you.

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  15. Dear Cheryl,Thanks for the Precious reply that I needed today..Has been a hard night and day so far..I am so sick.Nerves make Me that way a lot.No No you can not stop or give up you are blessing so many..Mother once wrote a song There's no place to stop or turn around so I must keep traveling toward Home..How true..The best is yet to come and I am sure all of Heaven could say it's worth it all Come On My Child You Can Make It...And that is the name of a song God gave me..We have come to far to look back..We will soon trade this old cross for a crown..And like I said before Your crown I am sure will be graced with many stars..You keep shining for Jesus...Prayers and love come your way and PLEASE don't forget me when you talk to Jesus!!Love Loads,Elaine

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    1. I am SO sorry you are so sick, my friend. Bless your heart. I will be continuing to pray for you. Keep looking up. THANK YOU for your precious words of encouragement from you and your dear Mom. She and my Mom are up there in Heaven resting with our dear Lord. You and I still have our battles to fight until we go and join them one day. It is so wonderful that we have each other's prayers and support and encouragement. Sending many blessings and much love your way tonight!

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  16. Thanks a million Cheryl!!! You are a real blessing and friend I will always treasure..Have a glory filled evening!! Love Loads,Elaine

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  17. As children of God we all walk different paths but we al have the same sinful old man and the sin of Adam raises its ugly hud, Adam and Eve hid from the LORD GOD in the garden in fear and so we too walk in the path of fear in our lives ... IF we but let it intrude.
    I’ve often thought upon that verse in Revelation about the first mention of these nit allowed in heaven being of the “FEARFUL” even before the unbelieving ... as it being a great rebuke to us all.

    Your sharing of the depth of your heart and quest of deeper knowledge of our LORD is one I ought to also strive for too,.

    That verse Paul quotes “That might KNOW HIM, and the POWER of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings... I don’t mind the first two .... but oh dearie me! It involves suffering!
    And what suffering our Saviour went through!? Am I ready for that too?

    Lord bless you dear sister, it’s a blessing to read your blog and also I thank you for your comments on my blog too today,
    Prayer hugs Shaz in Oz.x
    {Wonderful Words of Life - Shaz in Oz}
    {Calligraphy Cards - Shaz in Oz}

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  18. Thanks so much for sharing the you tube message on Eagles. Its wonderful . Thank you.
    I added it to my blog post. Xx

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  19. Dear Sister, I praise the Lord that He gave you this testimony to share. I think fear is something most everyone suffers with at one time or another. I had fear this morning as I drove home from dropping off my husband and it began to rain. On the radio came a weather alert with a tornado warning and the words to take shelter. I was on the interstate, 10 miles from home, no shelter around me, and I began to fear that I would be caught on the road if it came our way. My heart began to race and I began to cry out to the Lord. Immediately I heard the words (not audibly, but in my spirit) "Fear not. I am with you." And again, "Fear not, I am with you." (I made it home just fine and have heard nothing more about a tornado.) Yes, He is with me. Yes, He is with you. Yes, He is with every one of us. He will not abandon us. He will be with us in the storm. He will be with us in the calm. He will be with us even when we neglect Him. He will be with us even when we abandon Him. And that's the most amazing, unbelievable truth there is. HE. NEVER. LEAVES. US. Not for a moment. I loved this testimony and even more I loved your podcast. That sweet voice sharing what God has done for you. I'm so glad God revealed truths to you that you needed to hear through your husband. Often that is the case, and is why we need to be in a spirit of submission to the Lord and accept humbly what He shows to us, especially through our spouse. It is for our good. Always, it is for our good. I'm praying that you will have complete physical healing, and even more I'm praying that the truth Jesus has revealed to you will take root and become the path to a full healing from the fear that has bound you for so long. Rest in Him. Thank you for your comment on my blog. I'll send you a personal email to catch you up on what we've been up to. Hugs, Nancy

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  20. Good morning sweet friend! Oh, that I might know Him should be my heart cry. I so relate to this post, I often am overcome by my fears. Praise God that the Holy Spirit flooded your soul and you recognized that the enemy wants to steal our joy through fear! Blessings and hugs~

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  21. I think I appreciate our Lord and Savior more as I get older. Thank you for your posts and your encouragement.

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  22. Thank you for sharing so transparently. I can relate to do much that you share shared especially about battling with fear.

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  23. I believe the Lord is working a work in us women for sure. So many of us have felt the need to go deeper into His love so we can be that wise hearted women in this day and time for there is a great need for us to be wise. Getting real and learning to face our battles as not always a bad thing is I think the first step in doing that. We still live in this sinful body with it's all the emotions we had before meeting Christ. The emotion of fear can be paralyzing and keep us from stepping out in faith for what ever the Lord wants us to do. How the enemy of our soul loves it when we are frozen in our natural state. God bless you for your transparent heart. There is freedom in being so. I think one of the keys for me in my issue is to not fall into the trap that when I get freedom to believe I won't have to battle again on my anger. Not so, this world is not our home, thanks God and we rally are passing through and again the enemy of our soul wants our passing through to be useless here on earth. thanks God for those who refuse to bow down to the enemy any longer. Thank God for you sister for sharing your battle with everyone who stops by your site. You are an inspiration to us all.

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